I awoke in the mountains outside of San Diego this morning. An hour later we were at the studio to unload all of the band gear off of the bus. Shortly afterwards the bus driver gave us a ride near the airport. As I collected my bags from the trunk of the car I was hit with a divine realization. " I don't have to see these guys ever again! " I felt a weight lifted off of my shoulders. It was quite a liberating feeling. It's strange though, as much as I want off of this tour, I love touring. I love working all day to make a few hours of the evening enjoyable for people.
I cannot wait to be back with the Flaming Lips. I will be able to do creative fun work in a positive environment by people who appreciate the work that I do and treat me well and compensate me well for it. The band did thank Chris and I over the PA system last evening which was nice but really, I hate it when bands go on about the end of their tour over the PA. The crowd really doesn't care and usually seems confused by all of the babble, they want to hear your songs, say the name of the city and how much you love it and leave it at that.
I am going to write a book on cliche things not to ever do again when on the road.
I have an enormous amount of respect for the simple things in life at the completion of this tour. You know, water, showers, uninterrupted sleep, healthy food, normal eating times, household facilities, peace and quiet.
I also have an enormous amount of gratitude to the people I call my friends, and my family. To all who call me, drop emails, send text messages, etc, it really means a lot to me when out on the road. It's good to feel the love because well, like all of those terrible songs from the 80's suggest, the road can be a lonely place. (especially when you aren't chasing women and addictions.)
I am going home for three days and then flying down to San Francisco for a week. I am going to spend my time hanging out with Val and visiting the Sivananda Yoga Center. I feel like I need a vacation and why not try and take a bit of a Yoga vacation?
I am happy to be able to spend some time with Val. She has definitely been the best friend that I have ever had throughout my adult life and we have a lot of catching up to do. It's funny, of all of the people who have come and gone in my life, I have thought of her at least once a day for the last 10 years. She is going to show me around San Francisco. Hopefully a side much different then my recent experience. The Tenderloin area, full of wingnuts, crackheads, gangsters, aliens, life forms definitely not of this planet that I call earth. Did I mention that she lives in the Haight Ashbury area?
As crazy as things were, I kept my calm inside, I never once gave into some idea's that my mind dared to entertain and I feel as is I have emerged from this experience s stronger, although beaten, wiser, happier person. I appreciate so many things that I once took for granted. (like being around good music, ha ha ha ha ha, no really, I mean it.)
I now am going to take some time to ponder a new direction in my life.
I'll keep you posted, until then stay tuned and stand by for the next series of amazing adventures of my life with the Fabulous Freaky Flaming Lips. . . . . I promise to keep you gripped to the edge of your seats, anticipating my next journal entry each day, full of colorful, wonderful, death defying, enlightening, mind blowing, ear piercing,face melting, skull splitting, love building, ever evolving, happiness inducing, tear jerking, love filled, stories of hope, determination, soul searching, self realizing, stories of life, the universe, and everything. . . . . . . . . . love, love, love. . . . . . . .
Until next time, tell someone you love that you love them, let them know that they are important to you. Take time out for yourself, to just relax, enjoy doing nothing, stop thinking just sit and breathe, let it all go. Embrace the fact that you are able to do all of the things that you do, that you are able to support yourself in the way that you do, and in turn that you support others and help them in times when they need it most, as it will come back to you when you need it back.
I love all of you and wish you the absolute best of this life. I hope to see you all soon somewhere.
Peace, Peace, Peace, Peace. . . . . . . . . .and more Peace, cause after all thats what we all really want, just a little light.
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